This one hits home. I’ve been struggling (to learn new concepts) at work. Anxiety! Depression! Thoughts that I will lose my job! On and on and on for the past eight months. But I’m hanging on because of posts like this one. I take it all to heart. I (try my best) to practice what I press.
But it’s difficult. It came to a crossroads a few weeks ago after a discussion with my boss. But I will keep at it. One step at time. With more vigor. Asking for help where needed. Showing up day after day.
It will be hard. But hopefully get easier as I succeed in the smaller tasks. Then I can take on the newer and more difficult tasks.
This is brand new territory for me. I’ve never experienced this level of anxiety at work. Ever! I pray to God every day to give me the strength and clarity of mind to continue.
Mohan, thank you for trusting me with this. Truly.
What you described is far more common than we talk about, especially when we’re stretching into new responsibilities or new expectations. That anxiety tends to show up not when we’re failing, but when we’re growing into rooms we haven’t fully grown comfortable in yet.
I’ve learned that feeling “behind,” unqualified, or exposed usually isn’t a sign that you don’t belong. It’s a sign that you’re early. Early in the learning curve. Early in the stretch. Early in becoming the person who can carry what’s being asked of you.
I still wrestle with this myself. A lot.
One thing that’s helped me is reframing it like this: imposter syndrome doesn’t mean you’re an imposter - it means you’re in near to the version of yourself you’re becoming. You’re standing in the gap between who you were and who you’re growing into. That space is uncomfortable.
What stood out most to me in your comment is this: you’re still showing up. Asking for help. Taking things one step at a time. Praying for strength and clarity instead of running from the pressure. That’s not weakness, that’s discipline and humility working together.
I’m grateful you’re here, reading, reflecting, and pushing forward even when it’s hard. Keep going. One honest step at a time is enough.
And thank you for the kind words about the house - I appreciate that more than you know. This has been a long journey.
Really enjoyed reading this, not just because of the takeaways but for taking us on the journey you have undertaken to build not a house but to build yourself in areas that 1 year ago you would not have known.. thank you for sharing and reminding us about the reality of quitting and that we can all do hard things
Issac, thanks for the fabulous post!
This one hits home. I’ve been struggling (to learn new concepts) at work. Anxiety! Depression! Thoughts that I will lose my job! On and on and on for the past eight months. But I’m hanging on because of posts like this one. I take it all to heart. I (try my best) to practice what I press.
But it’s difficult. It came to a crossroads a few weeks ago after a discussion with my boss. But I will keep at it. One step at time. With more vigor. Asking for help where needed. Showing up day after day.
It will be hard. But hopefully get easier as I succeed in the smaller tasks. Then I can take on the newer and more difficult tasks.
This is brand new territory for me. I’ve never experienced this level of anxiety at work. Ever! I pray to God every day to give me the strength and clarity of mind to continue.
Keep posting. I read every single post.
Congratulations on your new house!
Mohan, thank you for trusting me with this. Truly.
What you described is far more common than we talk about, especially when we’re stretching into new responsibilities or new expectations. That anxiety tends to show up not when we’re failing, but when we’re growing into rooms we haven’t fully grown comfortable in yet.
I’ve learned that feeling “behind,” unqualified, or exposed usually isn’t a sign that you don’t belong. It’s a sign that you’re early. Early in the learning curve. Early in the stretch. Early in becoming the person who can carry what’s being asked of you.
I still wrestle with this myself. A lot.
One thing that’s helped me is reframing it like this: imposter syndrome doesn’t mean you’re an imposter - it means you’re in near to the version of yourself you’re becoming. You’re standing in the gap between who you were and who you’re growing into. That space is uncomfortable.
What stood out most to me in your comment is this: you’re still showing up. Asking for help. Taking things one step at a time. Praying for strength and clarity instead of running from the pressure. That’s not weakness, that’s discipline and humility working together.
I’m grateful you’re here, reading, reflecting, and pushing forward even when it’s hard. Keep going. One honest step at a time is enough.
And thank you for the kind words about the house - I appreciate that more than you know. This has been a long journey.
Really enjoyed reading this, not just because of the takeaways but for taking us on the journey you have undertaken to build not a house but to build yourself in areas that 1 year ago you would not have known.. thank you for sharing and reminding us about the reality of quitting and that we can all do hard things
Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment, Prajesh!
It has definitely been a rollercoaster of work and discovery.
I feel like it has been a growth opportunity for me. I don't necessarily like it all the time but I know it has helped me.